Shantana Brown

Who I Am vs. Who I Was - Shawnalee Dixon's Testimony  I am merely a woman of God professing and sharing what God would allow me to. I’ve never been led to share this kind of testimony before maybe because I have been looking at the circumstances and not God but today my eyes are fixed and I dear to reach and encourage someone that God is real and He is more than able to do the exceedingly abundantly above all we can ask or think, just believe. As a teenager, I struggled with quite a number of issues because of the abuse and trauma I was going through at a tender age.  The beginning or rather before I entered high school I was a brilliant & good athletic young girl who wanted nothing but to make my mother proud and to excel as much as I could & so I aimed at doing the best I could at all times. My family was always supportive & very loving until my grades started falling. My passion for netball was gone & I started to become someone no one could underst...

Part 1 - A love Letter to Christians bruised by Rejection What is life without pain, disappointment, rejection and sufferings? Absolutely nothing! It is from the angle of rejection that I am encouraged and led to write this blog post. My Experience There is a deep, lingering, unexplained pain and seemingly unbearable ache that comes with being rejected. I know this pain oh so well after feeling rejected from past relationships ending, after feeling rejected by God when I found out about Endometriosis and the havoc it wrecks in my body and fertility, having close friendships ending pre-maturely and when my father decided he didn’t want to be a part of our family anymore and walked out on us. All of this happened in one year. The purpose of sharing this is to identify with you and let you know that you are not alone. We may not have similar issues but I have an idea how you are feeling and most importantly, God does too. We often assess ourselves to see if and how we have co...

Dear Sisters in Christ, This is an encouragement and a reminder to you to not compromise your walk/relationship with Christ for anyone or anything. It is never worth it. Do not do it for work, family or any sort of relationship/friendship. I want to speak specifically to romantical relationships with the opposite sex. A man who is handsome, charismatic, charming, has a great sense of humour and in a decent job would make a great provider for the family and if he grew up with his 6 sisters, that would communicate that he understands women (bonus!!). But if he doesn't have a relationship with Christ, he has no eternal value to you presently or your future family. A man who is able to lead your family in God's righteousness, lead family devotions and prayer understand that his strength does not come from his muscles or intellect but from God through Christ Jesus. This is a man we should gladly commit and submit to. A man who knows his worth and value - understand that ...

On January 1, 2018, 9:59 p.m., I sat in my mother's living room blank. This was rather strange for me because while I don't usually write new year resolutions, I usually know what I wanted to achieve. But not this year, I was broken and empty, I began to do the only thing my mind could process...pray. This was the exact prayer I said that night (I wrote it in my phone). "I have started this year on "E". I have no goals, plans or expectations. The only thing I have is my hope. More than ever, however the next few months of this life manifest itself, I will be sure and confident that it is the Lord's doing. I belong to you and no one else Lord - do with my life what only you can - to your glory and honour." It was a few days after this prayer, I found out I would need to do surgery. You can read about this experience in the blog entitled " My experience with Fibroids and learning about Endometriosis ". "Do not conform to the patt...

A Letter to My Unborn Child - I will meet you someday❣ Dear baby Joel Josiah/ Zemira-ann, It is imperative that you know that you were purposed to be here even before your daddy meets your mommy and makes her his wife. I want you to know that, even though the doctors have foreseen challenges ahead and the possibilities of not carrying you, I love you immensely and I can’t wait to meet you. I have been praying for your future generation. I write this letter with much joy and anticipation in my heart. You will be the reason many will have renewed hope in our Saviour. Your birth and life will be a living testimony of the goodness and glory of God. Your heartbeat will represent the very sacrifice God made when he sent his son to die for our sins, that his life, much like yours, will be a testimony of God’s love to mankind, his grace and sovereignty. You will grow up in the likeness and wisdom of God like Samuel. Like David, I pray you will grow to seek and hunger after God’s righte...

Fibroids and Endometriosis In April 2017, after bleeding in between periods, I found out I had 3 fibroids measuring 1.7 cm, 4.7 cm and 5.7 cm and a small cyst on my left ovary. Did I know what they were? Of course not! The doctor went further to enquire about my family planning timeline as he encouraged me to get pregnant within a year and then proceed to remove them within the next 2-3 years.  So first things first, what are fibroids? Fibroids are non-cancerous growths that develop in or around the womb (uterus). The growths are made up of muscle and fibrous tissue and vary in size. Having a child isn't an option as I am an unmarried Christian woman which means sex outside of marriage is a sin. I made the decision to engage in watchful waiting for the remainder of the year. How fast could they possibly grow within a year? So let us fast forward to January 2018. I realized my tummy was protruding like that of a woman in her second trimester of pregnancy, I was unab...